Eleanore Goes To School

I always said to myself, that when I had a little girl of my own, she would get to do aaaallllll of the wonderful things that I only dreamed of doing when I was younger (don't we all say that?). Alright, so I can't wave my magic Mommy wand and turn her into a princess, and I refuse to ever buy her any kind of power wheel vehicle toy, especially those of the Barbie corvette variety. But I can sign her up for music class.

When I was 3 or 4, a friend of mine (Veronica was her name), went to dance class. Also, my cousin (Frank), was in Karate (I remember going to a class or two and watching from the side). I never understood why my parents didn't enroll me into such classes. I wanted to dance and yell "Hi-yah!" just like Veronica and Frank. When I was a little bit older, I did get to participate in things like Campfire and Girl Scouts, so it wasn't as if I was locked up in a cave, I just remember having the ambition to do so much more.


On Saturday, Eleanore and I, no boys allowed (they smell anyways), headed across town to the Abilene Performing Arts Center, for Kindermusik! We had researched local dance classes on the internet, and Kindermusik seemed like the perfect fit. Eleanore isn't at all built for ballet, could you honestly picture her twirling around on her toes? I don't think she'd really be very into tap, she can hardly walk in normal shoes. And gymnastics? Are you laughing too? Its not that I don't have faith in my daughter, because I believe that she can do anything she wants to do, I just know that her stubborn personality combined with her Sasquatch body, would not make for a graceful ballerina, or a smooth tumbler. If she decides later that she wants to give those things a go, we'll certainly give it a try. Until then though...


From the moment we stepped into the studio, she was thriving. She wouldn't stand still for a picture, but I managed to make the one that I did get to work. Some of the other kids from the class were sitting on a mat, playing with musical instruments that had been set down by the teacher, before the class started. I encouraged Miss Elie to go play with them too. Eleanore has never been in a classroom environment before. At the most, shes played with two other kids at a time, either at their house or here at our house. Being in a room with 6 unfamiliar faces was a little overwhelming, and accompanied with an expected amount of pouting and attitude. For the most part though, she seemed willing to play nice, and happy to be a part of something new and unknown.


As soon as the clock struck 11:30, the teacher (the sweetest lady, you can tell the kids just love her) closed the door, and all of us parents got to relax, kid free, in the lobby while our babies sang and danced in a nearby room. Previously, in my head, I had imagined the moms being stuck up, like some of the awful play group style moms that I had met at the park, but the reality was very different. There were actually more dads in the rooms, than moms? And one mother who was there, had her 1 year old little girl, just freshly walking (come on Charlie, everyones got you beat!), so we had a lot to talk about- babies and diapers and military nonsense. I didn't really get to know any of the other parents, but one of the dads did mention that he might be the one doing my spinal when the bean is born in August. That wouldn't be awkward at all, would it?


I knew I should have brought my book to read, to help pass the time while Elie was out of sight. Things sure got boring. I walked around the room, took some pictures (I really liked this red wall), drank some water, had tiny bits of random conversation. Next time I'll be sure to bring something to keep me occupied though.

Before I knew it- the doors to the classroom were opening, and all of the kids (except my Eleanore, who was standing inside by herself, looking completely confused) came running out to collect their parents.

For the last 15 minutes of the class, every week, the Moms and Dads all join in. We sit together on the mat with the kiddos, shake some red Kindermusik brand egg shakers to a beat, trying to teach the kids rhythm, and then dance around in a circle as our way of saying "goodbye" just before school is over. Maybe it was all of the excitement, or maybe she was just tired, but Eleanore took it upon herself to leave the mat during shaker time, leave the circle during dance time, and then eventually leaving the entire room during the end of our goodbye time, making me chase her all around trying to figure out what was wrong. The pout came out, and she mumbled things like "well, I just don't want you to play with me", which I knew really meant "Mom I'm tired, and this is hard stuff for a first timer" (right? I'm fun dangit!). When it was time to actually leave, she sat herself down in the middle of the lobby, while other kids were putting on their shoes, and she cried. And she cried. And she cried some more.

"I don't want to leave, I want to go to dance class!", she howled.


The teacher had nothing but good things to say, presented Eleanore with a toy spinning top that all of the other kids had gotten at the last class (we came in 3 weeks late, and the class is 15 weeks long), and we decided that we'd officially enroll her, because she and Kindermusik are a perfect fit.


She sang the entire way down the stairs, and the entire way home. Her happy voice echoed throughout the halls as we paraded out of the building. We can't wait until next Saturday, when she gets to see all of her new friends again, learn a new story, and I get to finally get past page 4 of "Dear John".

Good job Eleanore, Mommy and Daddy are proud of you *blows kiss*.

Week 28

Before I get to my Flashback, I have to take a minute to thank you guys, for the overwhelming support that you wrote out for me, in both comments and emails, yesterday on my post about accepting my little bean. I admit, I was scared to hit publish, knowing that it would let everyone see a different side of me that I often keep hidden, but after I did I could almost instantly feel the dark cloud above my head slowly start to lift. It might take me awhile, but I'm going to try and email you all back individually (so if you didn't leave an email, or you don't have one available on your blog or blogger profile, would you mind hoping back into the comment section of yesterday's post and leaving it for me?). Again, thank you guys. You've all helped me more than you probably know.

But now lets get to our Flashback'ing!



...Can you guess which one is me? Don't cheat and look at the impossible to read caption below either.

Did you guess top row, third from the left, purple ruffle dress? *Ding ding ding!*

If you're wondering why I'm wearing a semi formal dress, and why nobody else is- well, that's a good question. I remember leaving the house that morning, excited for class pictures. I remember wearing my "nice" shoes to go with my nice outfit, I think it had been raining (I grew up in Washington, when was it not raining), and I had argued with my mom about my feet getting wet. I remember wearing a less than matching coat over my puffy dress, thinking that it wouldn't matter, because once I got to school I'd just take the coat off. Simple solution, right? Little did I know, I would be the only person dressing up, and I'd want to hide behind that coat until the bell rang at 3:00 that afternoon.

I was tall for my age, so I was always put in the back rows for pictures, right up until I graduated. Christopher still comments on how tall I am, when it catches him off guard, but I'm actually not. I'm certainly not short, but I don't think my height is far from average. I'm 5'8. Christopher is 6'2. Because of those stats combined, Eleanore will probably be 8 feet tall. Poor girl.

My family and I had moved to Woodland the year before, in the middle of the school year. I had been the new girl. It wasn't as glamorous as I had hoped for. And then this year, came another new girl. Her name was Melanie, and we became best friends. Shes the shorty standing directly under the teacher. Kinda cute, huh? Our parents became close friends too, living on the same side of the river, so we spent a lot of time together. After school, weekends, basically every minute of every day. Melanie had an older brother, who I had a crush on off and on for years, but lost interest in once middle school hit. Maybe it wasn't even a crush, it was more of a fascination. I'm an only child, I had never spent much time around boys, and being around him made everything seem different. Sometime towards the end of the 2nd grade, Melanie and her brother left. I remember crying in my classroom for an en entire day. Melanie's mom had pulled them out of class, and sent them to live with her Grandparents for the rest of the school year, and I think the entire summer. I'm not clear on the details of what happened, but Melanie returned in time for us to start the 3rd grade together. Thank god, because I was lost without her.

We're not friends anymore. I don't remember when exactly it was that we drifted apart. I think she left Woodland to go to a private school sometime around the 5th grade, and that's probably where our friendship fell silent. Her new best friend was her neighbor, a gorgeous little girl that I had never liked (I was jealous, obviously), and because we never saw each other anymore, that was the end of the road for us.

I still remember details about ever single person in that picture, a few of them I've kept in touch with through Facebook (I'm totally going to upload this and tag them when I'm done here). Second grade was good for me. Kids hadn't yet learned how to be mean, homework was still learning how to read and five minus three, and I never had to worry about anything more serious than my nice shoes getting wet, or being the only one dressed up on picture day. The second grade was kind of perfect.

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Want to Flashback with us? You can stick with this weeks theme, dig up an old school portrait, or if you don't have one or just can't find it, you can use any old picture- from a year ago, from ten years ago, whatever you've got. Upload it to your blog, your Facebook, a twitpic, Flickr... anywhere is fine. Make sure to write a little bit about it, because I believe that every picture has a story, even if you can't remember it and have to completely make it up, haha.

Make sure you either grab the flashback button from the bottom of my blog (wayyy down below all of the posts) to center somewhere in your flashback, or just type out a link that will bring people back here, so that they can find more flashbacks, and hopefully get an itch to play along!

Next weeks theme, if you choose to participate (totally optional), is going to be Valentines Day, of course. I don't have a single picture from Valentines Day, so I'm going to have to dig up something with either hearts or roses in it. We'll make it work, won't we?

Alright, that's it folks, link up, have fun! Can't wait to to check out everyones posts!